27 Weeks down 13 to go
27 weeks ago my beautiful wife and I, in the middle of a bathroom renovation, found out that she was pregnant with our first child. We had been told that it might be difficult for us to have children and come to find out it wasn’t really that hard. In fact I told the doctor “I guess we hit it right on the nose” when I found out. HAHA boy that was stupid. I’m sure he has had people who have said much more stupid things then that when they found out.
Are we ready to become parents? Probably not. Am I ready to become a father? HELL NO! I still have dreams of being able to do what I wanted with my wife like take vacations, dinners together, nights on the town, just spending time with the two of us on our time. I am not ready to give all of that up. I am not ready for my life to circle around a pooping, puking, sleeping newborn! To make matters worse with my work schedule I am going to be the one who is going to be the primary care giver to our child, I know that I am definitely not ready for that. I also felt like with my work schedule I was going to miss out on alot of my kids life when he is older. I have read lots of research about men who suffer from post-partum depression. But now I bring up the question, can a man suffer from pre-partum depression. But lately I’ve been always wondering… Am I going to be a good father? Do I have the skills needed to be a parent at all? What’s going to happen to my family if something happens to me at work? What will I do when I have to change our baby’s diaper for the first time? But you want to know something… despite these questions and feelings IT’S EXCITING! (now I am just waiting for what my wife will say tonight when I get home after reading this)
Hopefully seeing our baby on Wednesday at our next sonogram and check up will cheer me up alittle.
That’s why I started this blog. Not only to help me have a place where I can vent but also to jot down some of my thoughts and my findings from being a first time dad. So in the future expect new pictures/videos and better enhancements to the blog. Hope you enjoy!